I wanted to help a friend. There was something weird going on at the campus, and... instead of helping, I died right in front of her. I accepted something I shouldn't have and was encouraged by someone and died since it felt like I got shoved a whole bunch of memories that weren't mine.
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My head was a mess after that... when I came here, I mean. I probably died from shock?
[ This was why he was not hesitant in wearing the inflatable t-rex costume. ]
So, even now... I feel like I keep having flashbacks of things that never happened to me.
... I know it's hard to believe, but you can't blame yourself for what happened. You were doing the best you could with what you had - there's nothing wrong with that. Even if it feels like the opposite after the fact.
Both. Some parts are really sad... or terrifying. I think if that memory was actually fine, I would have passed out on the spot. Some of those are sometimes my nightmares for the night. All the happy parts are drowned about by them.
I've been waking up before noon lately too...
[ That's supposed to be normal, but it's not normal for him. ]
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[ but not Ludger, because Ludger was dodging that shit! who needs sleep!
he'll seriously consider for the question. too much information...? ]
... I think I should be okay with anything?
[ How Bad Could It Be ]
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... I keep having nightmares about how I died.
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... Geez. I'm sorry, that sounds awful.
[ he looks sympathetic, but not as though he's pitying Hyunjung. ]
What happened? If talking about it is alright.
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[ yippee (tears) ]
My head was a mess after that... when I came here, I mean. I probably died from shock?
[ This was why he was not hesitant in wearing the inflatable t-rex costume. ]
So, even now... I feel like I keep having flashbacks of things that never happened to me.
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[ Hyunjung be nice to yourself challenge... ]
Does what you remember bother you?
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It's more like I tried to interfere and I made things worse... so it's hard not to think it's not my fault. But yeah, those memories...
[ He'll get so many flashbacks at trial in a PTSD manner. ]
They're kinda disturbing.
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BOY does Ludger know that feeling, though he'll let Hyunjung move them along. ]
Because they're not yours and that's unsettling or... their contents?
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I've been waking up before noon lately too...
[ That's supposed to be normal, but it's not normal for him. ]
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[ there is so much he could try to tackle here, but he'll go with the easiest route first. ]
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[ ;;;; ]
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bro ur depression]... This must be really strange for you then, huh. I'm sorry it's been so rough.