( Some time after trial... Yuki can be found in his own cell. He's sitting seiza, hands proper on his lap, gazing at nothing beyond the bars. Unlike the general agitation surrounding him earlier, right now, he seems calm - no scratching, no fear.
Still, his quiet of his morose expression suggests a deep, and unbearable self-loathing. )
[ it's okay. because Ludger will close his eyes for a moment before pushing himself forward. one step, two step, and then he's right in front of Yuki and... ]
Yuki-
[ he crashes down on his knees, and reaches out, trying to hold Yukinosuke. to embrace him. ]
( Oh!!! That... surprises him, and though at first it takes a few moments for the reality to penetrate through the haze of self-hate he's woken up to, when he comes to, Ludger is there, and Yuki does, and will always, hold him back, tight. His eyes are wet. )
... No, I ought to be the one apologizing. I'm... so, so very sorry... for everything. It's not enough, but I'm sorry.
( Ahhh... To Yuki, this is hardly too little, too late. It's never too late to be cared for. He appreciates it so, so much. )
You did nothing wrong. You were just trying to give Miss Reiju and Sir Zvei justice. I'm... truly relieved I was chosen. If what happens to Sir Giyuu happens to me, then... I won't be able to hurt anyone anymore. That's all I could want, now that I'm this way.
... He holds him back, tight, like a lifeline, though he knows he's sinking. He doesn't know why he's always so unlucky. He doesn't know why ... no matter how hard he works, the story always ends with his exit. He just wants to spend a little bit longer with people like this, who are kind enough to give him love. He just wants to do something to make them happy.
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WEEK ONE, SATURDAY, POST TRIAL
Still, his quiet of his morose expression suggests a deep, and unbearable self-loathing. )
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... Yuki.
[ the back of his head thumps against the door. he sounds very, very tired. ]
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... He looks to Ludger. )
... Good evening. Did you wish to speak to me?
( His smile is difficult to read. )
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Yuki-
[ he crashes down on his knees, and reaches out, trying to hold Yukinosuke. to embrace him. ]
Yuki, I'm so sorry-
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... No, I ought to be the one apologizing. I'm... so, so very sorry... for everything. It's not enough, but I'm sorry.
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[ the answer is immediate ]
Do you understand? Yuki, you deserve so much better than this- I'm the one who's sorry. I didn't- I couldn't-
[ he certainly helped point the target at Yuki's back. and there, at the end - he didn't reach out. he couldn't return the embrace. ]
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You did nothing wrong. You were just trying to give Miss Reiju and Sir Zvei justice. I'm... truly relieved I was chosen. If what happens to Sir Giyuu happens to me, then... I won't be able to hurt anyone anymore. That's all I could want, now that I'm this way.
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... He holds him back, tight, like a lifeline, though he knows he's sinking. He doesn't know why he's always so unlucky. He doesn't know why ... no matter how hard he works, the story always ends with his exit. He just wants to spend a little bit longer with people like this, who are kind enough to give him love. He just wants to do something to make them happy.
Eventually, softly: )
... Thank you. I'm sorry.
( For hurting for him. )