[ Sometimes you forget. Her gaze will move from what he's preparing to his movements. Just checking for any stiffness, pain, or signs he may be suffering here ]
[ :think: it might be because of the forces in the universe...... interfering.... ooooooooo.... ]
... Sometimes I think I left too many things unsaid. But I also... don't really want to share those thoughts with the people they were intended for. After all, there's not a whole lot that can be done about anything now, right?
[ he shrugs, scooping up a serving of fried rice for Maomao ]
It's silly. I didn't really think I was someone who dwelled on things.
[ there's a quality to Maomao that is reminiscent of clear water - accepting, untainted, and unaffected by anything thrown her way. but where some people throw larger and larger stones, it makes Ludger a little wary. "surely this will be the point where everything spills over." so he drums his fingers against the counter, and offers: ]
I might ask them why they went ahead to the harbor. Or I might have asked them to stay with me, so they couldn't go.
[ a kernel of regret shared, and thus, the sting lessened. ]
[ when you just accept things as they are and do you best to avoid what is troublesome, you can appear to be clear.
however, she is someone who sees these little stones and start picking them up herself to add. examining them to see if they come from something bigger.
especially if she likes spending time with the person. but she won't make anything assumptions on how they feel about her or if she's even allowed to look further.
might have asked them to stay with me... huh? she thinks about julius mentioning testing someone's resolve and how she put together he was probably going to...
she isn't sure if she has any right to tread further. she is here to lighten what he's willing to offer. she'll take that kernel for now to turn over in her mind as she thinks about his question. ]
I am...unsure. While I wouldn't have been kidnapped again if I were quicker, I did learn of the bigger plot this way.
[ Pondering on how to explain this as concise as she can ]
There were these cases that didn't seem like they were connected, but actually were. Following the pieces eventually lead me to the culprit, but she faked her own death to escape.
Behind her was a plot to ruin the country and overthrow the emperor.
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[ toss toss, sizzle sizzle goes the rice in the pan ]
Want some?
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[ Sometimes you forget. Her gaze will move from what he's preparing to his movements. Just checking for any stiffness, pain, or signs he may be suffering here ]
Have you been taking care of yourself?
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[ though his movements are swift and sure... there is a slight tremble to his hands if she watches long enough. ]
As much as any of us are. Though I'm probably better off than the ones who just came back.
[ he'll add a splash of something and toss the contents a little more ]
Or Thancred.
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just going to turn away to grab a bowl ]
He is going through it this week. [ he nearly lost two people close to him in the last seven days on top of everything. ]
It doesn't make any one else's pain any less. If you would like some relief, I don't mind lending a hand.
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[ despite being the one to bring Thancred up, he's not really that interested in talking about him, it seems. ]
... I've been doing my best to not have any regrets. But it does mean that the things I do regret feel... bigger.
[ he's sieved his life and already shared the small pebbles of guilt. what's left are boulders. ]
Have you ever felt like that?
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she'll let the topic be dropped since her focus is on her current companion anyways. bringing the bowl back over to place it on the counter by him. ]
I have felt that before.
[ she will admit that much. ]
What is weighing so heavy on you?
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... Sometimes I think I left too many things unsaid. But I also... don't really want to share those thoughts with the people they were intended for. After all, there's not a whole lot that can be done about anything now, right?
[ he shrugs, scooping up a serving of fried rice for Maomao ]
It's silly. I didn't really think I was someone who dwelled on things.
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she isn't sure if she want's to trace that thought further. instead, she'll focus on the other part of it... ]
If you had the chance, would you change anything? Would you say something more to them?
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I might ask them why they went ahead to the harbor. Or I might have asked them to stay with me, so they couldn't go.
[ a kernel of regret shared, and thus, the sting lessened. ]
You?
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however, she is someone who sees these little stones and start picking them up herself to add. examining them to see if they come from something bigger.
especially if she likes spending time with the person. but she won't make anything assumptions on how they feel about her or if she's even allowed to look further.
might have asked them to stay with me... huh? she thinks about julius mentioning testing someone's resolve and how she put together he was probably going to...
she isn't sure if she has any right to tread further. she is here to lighten what he's willing to offer. she'll take that kernel for now to turn over in her mind as she thinks about his question. ]
I am...unsure. While I wouldn't have been kidnapped again if I were quicker, I did learn of the bigger plot this way.
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[ Ludger looks over with an odd expression - bewildered amusement and concern mixed together. but the air does lighten. was that also intended? ]
Maomao, did you find a massive conspiracy?
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[ Pondering on how to explain this as concise as she can ]
There were these cases that didn't seem like they were connected, but actually were. Following the pieces eventually lead me to the culprit, but she faked her own death to escape.
Behind her was a plot to ruin the country and overthrow the emperor.
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[ catchy ]
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It's nothing quite like that. I merely share my knowledge and let them fill in the gaps.
I have also got myself taken by those involved.