Yes, I am. That's the entire reason I exist, for people to use me. Being human too doesn't change that.
[ But he shrugs and looks away. Normally he'd tell Ludger to save his apologies for someone worthy of it, but... he's not going to even try, not when it'll inevitably lead them into an endless loop of Ludger trying to convince him that he's worth more than he actually is. ]
It's fine. I've had long enough to get over it.
Besides, compared to the people who had my token before, all this has been easy.
[ after a moment, he'll sigh, and serve himself a cupful. ]
I actually made it for Thancred, Urianger, and whoever wanted any. But I could use a break.
[ he'll take a sip before replying again. ]
And I'll still take then token, if you want. You don't like having it, right? I can't say I won't be nervous handling it going forward, but- it's worth it.
[ Ludger are you just cooking everything for everyone and not only when it's mealtimes for yourself, pls
Kaios glances away, lip curling a little. He hadn't phrased it this way before, but since Ludger's figured out what the token does, there's no reason not to say it... ]
I'm not allowed to have it. The first time I tried touching it I got thrown into a wall from the backlash.
But it keeps coming back to me here, so I can put up with it if you don't want to worry about it. It's not that big a deal.
[ Another shrug. Kaios takes another bite of his sandwich, considering, then huffs as a thought hits. ]
I guess if you're that worried, you can try saying something like "don't follow any orders if you don't want to." It's dumb, but it might work.
[ It would also be kind of funny to test how far that sort of thing might reach—would it be one of those orders that persisted, or would it only last as long as Ludger has his token?
It doesn't matter much though, in the end. He's not going to make Ludger take it if it makes him uncomfortable; it's his shitty token to figure out how to break at the end of the day. ]
[ ...Ludger please. Love the energy, it's great, but— ]
I don't think it'll work if you phrase it like that. It's a pretty strict curse.
[ Which is why it's fine if he doesn't want to take the token any more! Kaios sure isn't going to force it, not when he's got so much experience of having been in that place himself. ]
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Yes, I am. That's the entire reason I exist, for people to use me. Being human too doesn't change that.
[ But he shrugs and looks away. Normally he'd tell Ludger to save his apologies for someone worthy of it, but... he's not going to even try, not when it'll inevitably lead them into an endless loop of Ludger trying to convince him that he's worth more than he actually is. ]
It's fine. I've had long enough to get over it.
Besides, compared to the people who had my token before, all this has been easy.
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I hope you'll understand if that doesn't reassure me.
[ sigh ]
... Do you want more soup?
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You made it for yourself, didn't you? Eat your own food first.
And I mean it—don't worry about it. If you don't want to take the token any more, I don't care, but you haven't done anything worth freaking out over.
[ So there. Kaios just goes back to his own meal—it's literally fine. Ludger's been harmless. ]
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I actually made it for Thancred, Urianger, and whoever wanted any. But I could use a break.
[ he'll take a sip before replying again. ]
And I'll still take then token, if you want. You don't like having it, right? I can't say I won't be nervous handling it going forward, but- it's worth it.
[ it's just a small thing. even he can do that. ]
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Kaios glances away, lip curling a little. He hadn't phrased it this way before, but since Ludger's figured out what the token does, there's no reason not to say it... ]
I'm not allowed to have it. The first time I tried touching it I got thrown into a wall from the backlash.
But it keeps coming back to me here, so I can put up with it if you don't want to worry about it. It's not that big a deal.
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Yikes. What's even the point of that?
[ asides from being cruel ]
... I do really worry about making you do something you don't want to. I just need to adjust to the idea - don't worry.
[ he flashes a small smile at Kaios as he says it. he'll get over himself, pinky promise. ]
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I guess if you're that worried, you can try saying something like "don't follow any orders if you don't want to." It's dumb, but it might work.
[ It would also be kind of funny to test how far that sort of thing might reach—would it be one of those orders that persisted, or would it only last as long as Ludger has his token?
It doesn't matter much though, in the end. He's not going to make Ludger take it if it makes him uncomfortable; it's his shitty token to figure out how to break at the end of the day. ]
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Kaios, you shouldn't follow any orders if you don't want to listen to them.
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I don't think it'll work if you phrase it like that. It's a pretty strict curse.
[ Which is why it's fine if he doesn't want to take the token any more! Kaios sure isn't going to force it, not when he's got so much experience of having been in that place himself. ]